Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Christmas

It's that holiday. You know the one with all the productions. I'm exhausted.

I've made it a tradition with myself to reflect on the year that was during the two weeks after Christmas and writing a little news article of sorts. I'm gearing up for that now. What I'd like to say to you at this point is this, God has shown me many things this year. Things I don't necessarily like.

It looks like the year to come will see some major transitions. I don't think I'm ready.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed. That feeling has dominated recently. Just way too much to decide and not enough rest.

I didn't expect to have to struggle as much as I have. I wonder why that is? I'm not really special. I wasn't born into privilege really. Well privilege is a comparative thing. So, yeah, compared to people in, say, Guatemala, I'm living the life. But what is it in us that makes us think we are owed a certain standard of living?

Sweet stability, why does it look so easy? From the outside a story is neatly packaged and all figured out but the inside, the living of it, is pain, struggle and sometimes absurd.

Read Psalm 73
Nothing is new yet all is change.

"I can't afford this any more" she said, and it was true she couldn't. That's all.